A little too Naive

    There have been those time where my heart has saved me. When all that was keeping me alive was the blood pumping through my heart. That relentless bastard. Now looking back, I am thankful that I was saved because I could not enjoy the sun never refusing to shine, the way our eyes meet and we smile, the time we got caught being a little too naive.

    Those time where even breathing took all of my energy and it was all I could do to stay alive. The times when i couldn't even stay in the same room my heart just couldn't take it. The days my heart could do noting but bleed through the page of my journal.

    What I didn't understand is I have people on my side and not yours. It may have taken me a few fights, falls and bruises but because of them, I have my own whole army. Him, mom, lion, BCS, angel, dad, Ky, 2 face, and the list goes on and on. They are here to catch me when my firm ground is all burnt down. 

    Grace in their eyes. My saving grace. For once I am saved and for once I like it. Save me and never let go. I have things I want to do and dreams I want to accomplish. I just need a boost and a hand to hold on along the way. My saving grace is you. The person that says hi to me, the person that shows up at 3 am. The person that goes to Hawaii and still is helping you from that distance. 

Grace is a runner 

Every night she sets off alone 

Mile after mile 

Each stride farther from home 

Her pace never changes 

The peace she finds 

It never takes hold 

Why does she feel so alone 

No one really noticed 

Never bothered 

To see the signs 

Why does he choose 

To be blind 

Pushed ever farther 

Doesn't matter 

What she may want 

Just tear out your heart 

And go home 

Her minds always racing 

She knows she must 

Leave him behind 

The crushing weight 

Escapes with a sigh 

Grace is a runner 

No longer does she 

Set of alone 

Now each stride she takes 

Is toward home

Dear Heart, PS: Thank you for never giving up on me. I know I was tuff.