Saturday, August 30, 2014

↫I can Be↬

Who is Ashlyn Ellis you might ask? Who the hell knows. I sure don't. Some might say shes a nobody. Some might say she is a somebody. What they dont know is no one really knows her. Whats the point of hiding who we are anyway? Aren't we taught to be real? Not that you really care anyway. I mean lets get real, I have to open myself up to people who don't care. I don't care either, but secretly I do. First impressions are hard. I could spend a lifetime trying to avoid talking about myself but lets just cut to it.


What people might want to know about me is if you are reading this, you probably scare me. Weird. I know. This blog is not going to be about what I like or things I have done that I want to show off. It will be about how I hide at lunch an write and forget. It will be about the days that I quite frankly want to rage, the days I feel lonely, and the days I feel happy. [Insert Name Here] is now Ashlyn and it never felt so good. For once I can hide and be brave at the same time. I can be myself. I can be timid but adveturous. I can be weak and fervent. I can be in Utah but in Paris. I can be shallow and deep. I can be wrong and right, dead and alive, polite and rude, dangerous and safe. I can be me. Ashlyn is the new me. She will help me be who I really am. The me who is scared to death but wants to speak out. Ashlyn will be there when I  need the strength to pull through, to speak out, to be me, to help someone, to tell you what I always wanted to say. 


So back to the first question. Who is Ashlyn Ellis?
I.
AM.
ASHLYN.
ELLIS.