I'm scared that it was the end

"It will be just a little sting." They say... 

"It'll be okay" he said 

"I know how you feel" she said

 

It came so fast, and took me over. Where the sky is still black and the air quiet. Scary but peaceful. When white turns to black and I just miss you. The sting is an understatement. That dark place scares me. That place where you are scared on the edge, and you are crying for help, but no one chose to listen. That place where the sun hurts your eyes, and a "hello" makes you cringe. Where all you need in an "Are you okay?" even if you lie. 

I hope you find peace in the darkness that took over you. It came rather forcefully and I'm sorry. One day the ticker will stop ticking, and there is nothing we can do about it. But there was something I could do. This time maybe there wasn't, but I can't help but think.that maybe I should have spoke up,or yelled a little louder. 

Hang on a little longer.. hold on sweetie, I'll save you..